The Widow

Dead man, where you ever alive? Or was I just a seed you buried deep inside Some woman you wed Right before you crawled out of her bed and crept down the hall? Did you think of me? Did you even for a second hesitate in the doorway? It's just something that I'd like to know Though I'd still love you if told me You just walked away My God, what a world you love Where men bury their sons And without thought just walk away And my mother's heart breaks Like the water inside of her Dead man, is it being high that makes you alive? It makes you leave behind three boys and a wife in '89 As the track marks inched their way up your arm My mother taught my brothers and I not to call you daddy But to call you father But I believe there is something here to be learnt of grace 'Cause I can't help but love you Even with a heart that breaks Like the promises that you made