Hold The Light

it's been a long year like a long sleepness night Jacob wrestled the angel but I'm too tired to fight every Wednesday for two years we've met I've showed you all my anger, my doubts and bitterness there was no judgment in your eyes just the silent peace of God that felt so real in you will you hold the light for me? and I stay up late because I cannot sleep I don't want to face the quiet where its just God and me I'm waiting for the gavel handing me the sentence down because I don't believe forgiveness or even repentance now I want to feel redemption flowing through my veins I want to see with clear eyes beyond lust and hate I want the war to be over and know the good guys won and I want love to hold me to know I'm not alone standing around a willow weeping we were praying in the backyard in the chill of the night the friendship light reminded me who we are