Too far gone

I built these walls with blinders on my eyes brick by brick and now I realize that I'm shut out I'm shut in and every time I try to reach out I reach in I break my fingers on the bricks why do I do this to myself there is really no one else to blame so could you reach down and pull me out or am I just too far gone to be saved? or am I just too far gone to be saved? I take my falls, hands pulled behind my back you made the knot and didn't leave much slack now I'm tied up I'm tied down now every time I try to fly up I fly down into the sea and hold my breath I am a mirrored rumble fish life is so clenching for the kill so could you reach down and break my will or am I just too far gone to be saved? or am I just too far gone to be saved? I'm shut out I'm shut in and every time is try to reach out reach in I break my fingers on the bricks now every time I try to fly up I fly down into the sea and hold my breath I am a mirrored rumble fish life is so clenching for the kill so could you reach out and pull me out or am I just too far gone you'll never be too far gone, you'll never be too far gone to be saved