I can't explain

I've wrapped myself up In a universe again And let the darkness quell My matchflame confidence And unwillingly I hide The lever I must find To release the deep The tears withheld inside But I can't explain I can't make sense of the Things I'm saying The crystal tears Are sliding down again Your moonlit cheeks And soaking silken lips If this pain is so real There's a hand that someday must heal And give us the words That time steals and won't let us say